More Than Hate

Mashing your face Smear your blood as lipstick Replicate the pain you caused To see how you like it Tearful entertainment Cry, whine, die Harvesting your organs To feel fine Gnawing fingers off Colouring your arms Return the fantasy Of drawing blood in bed Hypocritical Spineless narcissist Rearrange your body To feel fine You never listen to me Eyeing your trophy Pressure to keep up With your high libido You hate my favourite word, no Until I give in You are free to make a mess But I have to stay clean I need to be erased From your tainted mind Delete everything Like I don't exist Reduce your expectations to zero Reuse manipulation tactics on you Recycle old stories to make you feel insane Rethink our history No need to repair Project your favourite Ideology onto me Bigotry is comedy Behind my back Are you really proud of me? Are you lying for my sake? Why put me on a pedestal Then throw me under? Stargazing on the edge Tempted to nudge But you'd just die in seconds Away from my hands Destroying all you own Including myself Close to overdose To feel fine Push comes to shove Say what I want to say Intentional hurt Free of remorse No more precautions I'd settle for an accident Admit the truth To feel fine I hope that we don't cross paths You are dead to me I don't forget or forgive I would never give you a chance I don't want to be in your life Anymore, evermore, take a hint I don't want to be in your life Anymore, evermore, take a hit