Car Crash Daydreams

This disguise tortures me Hide myself so you can't see That I have changed so much When did my joy leave Can't stand another second This fear cripples me This fucking masquerade I'll never show my face That was when when if fucking started Ever since my pride departed Never growing never changing Living this life I'm wasting But I need to find a way out I need to find a cure But the pain is suffocating Stagnant I endure But I still get these fucking car crash daydreams I need to break the cycle It's gone on for too long History repeated Just a mass of nerves Mixed with my wasted potential Wrapped up in This fucking anxious vessel So I just bottle it up Imprison my emotions But then you set the fuse And let spill the ocean Where are the Answers I need I know It's self inflicted All this misery Never-ending fucking rut Never-ending fucking rut