Treaty of Versailles (feat. Jorden)

Listen Your style is hypnosis, I've been spiraling I've been inspired, starting this cycle of idle tidal waves We went from stuck together to separate shallow graves I chose to push myself beyond the boundary, you battled me It's a difference of mind and maturity I promise that you only got better when you heard of me Certainly, learned to cope with alcohol and sertraline Searching for the rope to fill the hole you left inside of me I tried to be, in a different state of mind, you lied to me Love and hate, trying to escape this dichotomy Scribbles on the walls, I don't regret at all I'm still standing tall, but why'd you have to go disrupt the harmony And no solutions to the problem I got Only coping mechanisms meant to soften the shots, no chase But I still managed getting this far And how much longer can I run away, I'm circling spots, it's me Ugh They say the love of a parent is hard to beat I only wish you held a similar feeling regarding me You used to show me pain that a kid never ought to see 'Cuz the hurt was a part of you, so you made it a part of me And now I'm older, smarter and hopefully I'm a better man Doing shit that I honestly could've never planned I hope you see me and wish you could get a letter back I hope it hurts when you don't even get a telegram How does it feel that you never hear from your progeny? Your narcissism protecting you from the honesty 'Cuz anyone with a conscience can see you failed to give guidance And yet I can't even get a fucking apology You were supposed to be my first protector My first example ever, all you stimulated was my pain receptors You never made an effort to get to know me or my main endeavors I hope you never know I made this record I hope you live alone in pain forever I hope you throw the biggest contract of your life into a paper shredder I hope you date a Jenner I hope you feel the type of hurt not even Stephen King could ever get his brain to render I hope your joy is rarer And, most of all, I hope you know that none of this compares to me under your reign of terror I didn't live until the age of seven And I hope it haunts you every day until you die and leave this plane forever This is a verse about the years that you stole I hope the pain you caused my mom returns to you sevenfold I hope the God you claim to follow sees the rot in your soul And nobody comes the day they put your ass in a hole, I let you go