Prelude

Seems like everything that I do is wrong Every step is like fifty back and my peace of mind is just nonexistent Oftentimes when I'm out in public I try avoiding most eyes attention Hoodies on in the summertime tryna stay outta folks line of vision My insecurities visit often worst critic I could ever meet Is my own conscious To the point that talking from the ones dogging ain't affecting me I been heard that I been worthless ain't nothing new that you telling me I'm in searcha my real purpose hope it's sum great that God's set for me My past mighta not been the purest That don't mean that I ain't tryna change I ain't close by a long shot but I'll spend my life in the firing range If the need be then I'll repeat it till I cease breathing on my dying day Won't be beaten by these demons I keep these ones all lined at bay Try at least F*ck, but shit I been worried they finna escape Abandon my morals for stardoms an option But faking my feelings ain't feeling as great I'm still in debate if the tears that I shed and the fear I'ma fail is a seal of my fate Or a test of my will and persistence through pain that's required So I'll persevere through the rain Ooh I been Feeling estranged from ones that I love and spoiling the truth I'm really to blame but the ones That I trusted with all of my heart went and tore it in two Feeling the pain left me sore and confused now There's more than a mark with a horrible bruise It's a scar though it isn't important to you I was needing release so I poured it into This here Typa shit that's gon hit ears Might just vibe a bit cause you been here Stalled yo drive by shiftin in sixth gear Seeking heights attempt to reach Em's tier Since like nine I wished that I'd get near But no matter how much I try this bulb of light above me stays dim weird How two years can really change a person And friendships that he used to have Had one homie that I hang with turn and we ain't spoke in years just due to that Plus a girl I knew and tried dating curved and my boy hit and ain't use a strap They a family now whole baby birthed And I ain't tripping bout it no use in that Through the heartbreak it's still all love Through the disrespect I stay neglecting All conflict you can talk tough Far as I'm concerned the shit ain't impressive This raw emotion I balled up Finally made it's way to the paper guess that It's bout time that they caught up F*ck the past though let's change the present