2 am

Alone in a dark room at 2am, I think about how I fake Or force most of my emotions That might explain why I'm so socially awkward And why I tell girls and my co-workers And my dead friends to F*ck off All of them are fools, Myself included Alone in a dark room at 2am, I think about how I try to fit in, How I want to belong How I want to be one of the boys, How I want to be loved, How I want to love, How I want to be human And feel human In all ways except physical And how much easier life would be If I had just been Born away From my thoughts Alone in a dark room at 2am, I think about all the diagnosis that have been thrown at my face, Bipolar, Schizophrenic, Schizoid and Depressed At this point I just consider it Name calling But I have A much better diagnosis That requires no antidepressants or Antipsychotics I've self-diagnosed As an asshole (Good for you) Alone in a dark room at 2am I think about how I fantasize about Death and suicide That Lady Death is my mistress One shy kiss away from setting me free From all this boring routine that we call life Work, Relationships, Eating, Fucking, Sleeping, Talking and living, All of which I do very little of Alone in a dark room at 2am, I wonder how much better life would be for those around me If I had just been locked up in some loony bin And stayed there for the rest of my days In a way, In a way I'm locked up in this madhouse That some call my mind Alone in a dark room at 2am, I just write and breathe and think and finish this poem. This album is a work of fiction, Yet it is based on a true story. Includes mentions of God, Death, Suicidal tendencies, Self-harm, Love, And Many more.. It's better taken with A glass of water After 2 o'clock in the morning With an enthusiastic Mindset. The side effects are Weight gain, Drowsiness, Impending sense of doom, Euphoria, Spiritual enlightenment, Explosive mental diarrhea, Rock and roll, The great sense of What the f*ck did I just listen to, Or Even the This is the greatest shit I've ever listened to, To the Meh, I don't know