it's not even worth it

I'm fumbling through the thoughts I've had for several dozen weeks About ten thousand thinks an hour I can't force myself to sleep Or breathe I'm barely even holding onto sanity But I did this to myself I need to take responsibility Lately I'm just a wreck and I'm sorry Thought I had control but then life came out of nowhere and Knocked me right on my ass without stopping I'll sober up and take the wheel So you can't tell how bad I feel inside I filled up every moment Of the days I used to waste Except for years I've kept on going without taking any break And I wish that I could tell you that it's easy staying sane So many humans do I guess that, I'm just not the same as them There must be something wrong inside my brain 'Cause lately Things are just fucked and I'm sorry Thought I knew what I wanted but look where it got me Right on my ass but the world is not stopping I'll sober up and take the wheel So you can't tell how bad I feel inside