Please Hold Your Applause!

Please hold your applause til I'm off of the stage Feel it in my heart, I'm a star I'm amazing It's been kinda hard knowing I'ma fade But I made it out the darkness I made it out the haze Please hold you applause I need silence for a second Penny for my thoughts just to pay the cost Of every wasted second My daddy say to use em as a weapon So I put em in a jar Sufficiently large Or so I thought Until they started spilling out the top Tried to put a lid on it Wouldn't fit on it Need a bad bih With a fat ass to come and Hahaha I'm just playin But for real though I just graduated and the hardest thing I learned to do was how to be myself I been inundated by the corporations and notifications Sayin maybe I should try bein someone else Know you felt that Pressure got me bussin at the seams, my well tapped Can't I get a dollar for my dreams Or at least some Hennessy and weed Some Xans for my anxiety You prescribing me while eyeing me Well I ain't mean to offend you It just seems like Everything I've been led to has slowly suffocated my inner child And disconnected me from my body ody ody ayy I get a little loose at a party And ride off in a Ferrari The steering tight in my grip My tears is clouding my eyes I pray to god I don't slip But what's a slip to a crash And what's a crash to an interstate Man I'm sick of my mental state Put my foot through the dash Like f*ck it, freedom at last Please hold your applause til I'm off of the stage Feel it in my heart, I'm a star I'm amazing It's been kinda hard knowing I'ma fade But I made it out the darkness I made it out the haze Please hold your applause til I'm off of the stage Feel it in my heart, I'm a star I'm amazing It's been kinda hard knowing I'ma fade But I made it out the darkness I made it out the haze Please hold your applause til I'm off of the stage Message I actually don't have a Ferrari But I've been to plenty of breaking points And the lessons I've learned Synthesize into building your sand castle The way you want to build it Before the waves wash it away It's a beautiful melancholy And I recognize the spectrum of struggle is broad But show up for yourself as best you can Cuz otherwise, who're you here for