Behind the Ghost's Door

I don't want to feel this way I just want to think straight We made plans and you said "great" But it started getting late Don't show up Well that's okay A walk in the park turned to pouring rain Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained You're the one who escaped the pain You're the only one to blame I don't want to feel this way I just want to think straight That's right I'm givin' myself the hit I gave my all, gettin' tired of it Nobody asked me to, it's just what I do Now I'm impatiently waiting With no communication Wishing this was all Some elaborate creation I'm pulling it apart Out of blissful frustration I want to be better I do I'm burning out, through, just done I'm a jack of all trades Master of none Going in circles with love And that's no fun I don't want to feel this way I just want to think straight I made plans and you said "great" But it started getting late Don't show up Well that's okay A walk in the park turned to pouring rain Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained While everyone lives their lives I'm out here catching falling knives Give me a reason to fuckin' believe What I want has something to fuckin' achieve I'm swearing a lot, but it's how I cope I'm sweating a lot, but it's all for show I'm tied in a knot, stuck in a wedge I'm getting hot, step to the ledge Feel the breeze and start to cool At the bottom there is no pool No soft landing here! But I'm numb in a state of constant fear And this is all I hear I don't want to feel this way I just want to think straight I made plans and you said "great" But it started getting late Don't show up Well that's okay A walk in the park turned to pouring rain Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained I'm getting pretty fuckin' sick Sorry, don't mean to be a dick But when you throw me out just as quick As Mr. Owl takes his lick The fog in my head starts getting thick Ain't thinking clearly anymore We f*ck, we fight, we slam the door You go and act like nothings wrong Despite feeling sorry for so damn long But sorry doesn't cut it Don't worry I got the scissors, so f*ck it I'm about to write you off like you blew me off Which really threw me off onto that ground that ain't so soft Tell me the truth if ya want But if ya act like you're hot shit to flaunt I'll spit you on the mic with lyrics that haunt 'Cause I'm the fuckin ghost now Is this what you want? What's that? I'm not dead! But you can find me alone filled with dread Go on say it, it's all in ya head "C'mon JD it's all imaginary, it's all up there, can't you see?" Nah bitch, clearly I'm blind 'Cause I keep losing my mind With every bitch that I find That takes me for granted And leaves me behind But that's not you though Sike bitch I was just being kind I just wanted to be real with you About all that you put me through Because you're a fucking coward What did I expect, it's nothing new You put me to the test Didn't even try your best Now it's all coming out Straight from the chest This is what you asked for Putting the good night's behind the ghosts door