Bad Lie

I was alone I wasn't right but I wasn't wrong Wanted to fight but I wasn't strong Struggle inside but outside is calm Nobody know it Never been one for the fake-types If the vibe off then I break ties Cut the bad fruit when it ain't ripe Lessons I learned through the grapevine Never leave your back open They gone pull a steak knife uh Never knew a thing that is break time Clock keep ticking even when you try to save time Late nights contemplating where the f*ck my life is going I don't know and it's driving me crazy My family thinking that I am just lazy My friends they don't care, they wont ride when it's rainy Don't feel like the world really likes when I'm gracious Cause everyone out here just tryin to change me Feeling like my life is a bad lie Nothing ever working even though I damn try Sit in all of my thoughts just to pass time Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just, it just Nothing ever really change in this bland life Nobody really gonna be there in the sad times Look at how they chastise Never really ask why Bad times make me wanna flatline Seeming like the world tryna gaslight Rap my feelings from the heart When I feel up in the dark Yet these people wanna hate Tryna tear me apart I'm just giving what I got Tryna live off what I jot Even if I let it fall Then I pick up what is lost Till it's my moment Gotta be strong even when I feel my life colder Put it all on my shoulders I'mma soldier So I just grin and bare it All those years at the bottom was just building up my merit At the ceiling I was staring Questiong "Why?" Now I know deep down if you really gone fly Gotta know the bottom well till it meld in your mind If you make it out of hell then it's heaven you'll find Feeling like my life is a bad lie Nothing ever working even though I damn try Sit in all of my thoughts just to pass time Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just, it just Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay it just pass by Nothing ever really stay Nothing ever stay Nothing ever stay