Even Myself

I know I know Yeah Know what I am Know what I'll be Ignorant words that I spoke as a teen Hoping to be Something I'm not Someone I've lost What was the cost? Skydiving, nothing to pull Come take a look at this world that I rule Yeah Uh Yeah 'Nother late night Hours go by but it's the same time Still the same life Still the fake smile Still the heavy heart Still the blank eyes It's lonely when the walls will only listen Colder when it's solely your own mission Know my focus slowly growing distant That's how it go She already saying that she done for the night Nothing suffice Walk on a tightrope I stumble I die Crumbling pride as I'm wondering why that ain't nothing go right if I struggle and try Wonder if I'm even made for this shit Checking my streams like they changing and shit Whole life never no taste of success But I know why I ain't never believed in myself Am I even myself? Fighting demons myself Tryna be someone else like it'd free me from hell Other's opinions really seep through my shell I can't think for myself From the clothes that I rock To personas I cop Even notes that I jot Are just flows that I thought That the people would want Thinkin women would lust And yet here I am stuck, no one giving a f*ck About nothing I'm doing Lost touch with my music I'm stumped and confused Cause it's when I feel happiest I start to lose all the hunger and drive Who the f*ck am I? I don't know what's right But I know something's wrong bout these thoughts in my head Wake up to feel like I'm better off dead Too far to go but my tank been on red I'm exhausted, so lost I don't know who I am I've got too many fears Eating at my conscious Too many tears Deep inside their bottle I'm stuck inside this Loop and I can't Find no way to break out I've got too many fears Eating at my conscious Too many tears Deep inside their bottle I'm stuck inside this Loop and I can't Find no way to break out I've got too many fears Eating at my conscious Too many tears Deep inside their bottle I'm stuck inside this Loop and I can't Find no way to break out I've got too many fears Eating at my conscious Too many tears Deep inside their bottle I'm stuck inside this Loop and I can't Find no way to break out