Carrying The Sea

My life is like a sea of ocean I was told that I should dive right in you see? But the turquoise blue and my thalassa phobia scares me There is too much to carry on Damn it, the legacy The silence in this room is deafening But that's the only thing that's keeping me safe I feel it in my chest, the longing feeling, as long as all of it are keeping in tamed Sometimes I don't wanna go home anymore Cause the versions of myself I ain't no more I'm just waiting for this never-ending rain So I can finally drain out all the pain The fate of the day guides me I'm praying My father said that I should never lose my faith But when the tide is high and I'm losing my sight I know, I've tried There is too much to carry on Oh please, don't make me blind The silence in this room is deafening, but that's the only thing that's keeping me safe I feel it in my chest, the longing feeling, as long as all of it are keeping in tamed Sometimes I don't wanna go home anymore Cause the versions of myself I ain't no more I'm just waiting for this never-ending rain So I can finally drain out all the pain