Polaroids

No conversation we ever have will be the same Sometimes I don't even really know who's to blame I don't wanna hate you so I say it's okay Because I never wanna set out to ruin your name My minds running laps and I'm fucking exhausted No amount of meaningless texts will get us to where we started The sparks been out but the feelings are there the pain the love the lust the doubt and The lies that took me unprepared You showed up and I felt a way so unprecedented The way I fell for you I would have never expected You clearly didn't feel the same when I thought you did You Lied to me and said that it was all in my head I still have those Polaroid pictures you and I took The night we drove up and over the city we looked Looking at the bright lights from above and so distant You said you loved me and i wish We could relive this But nothing you say to me will heal my pain No matter what I hear the pain remains And I really really wish I could feel the same But I can't and baby maybe you're the one to blame I miss coming home with your makeup rubbed off on my face From kissing and laughing all night away at your place I miss the good morning texts and the way that when you said "I love you" made me feel so safe My hearts been broken so many times I can't count But this time I feel the world has shut me out I wish I could go and just replace you but there's no one around To make me feel like I got something to do in this town I still have those polaroid's and the plans in my head I can't burn the pictures so they stay a mess on the ground instead Spread out under my bed I don't wanna take a look but I miss the way they made feel Hooked I miss the way that I felt when I held your hand You made feel like I was floating but you weighted me to land You broke my heart now alone in my room I stand With these Polaroid pictures still in my hand I still have the Polaroid pictures that we took Containing all our memories for the books I wish that this pain was one I could overlook But even if I did then I would still write this hook Maybe one day I'll finally be over you And all the fucking bullshit that you put me through Going on drives just clear my head But it was just easier to clear with you in my bed Speaking to you was always so easy and therapeutic But now this hole in my chest makes it hard to fucking do it It hurt so fucking bad when you deleted our posts Looking at your page I felt like I'd choke You used to show me off and make me feel invincible But now when I talk to people I'm convinced I'll fold You're still in my camera roll and I wish you'd explain How it went from picture perfect so quickly to fractured pain Everything fell apart so fast I wish I could leave it in the past I kind of wished that it would last But never did you care about my ass I let myself get burned to ash I wish I could just take it back Instead of letting my heart get thrown in the trash I miss the way that I felt when I held your hand You made feel like I was floating but you weighted me to land You broke my heart now alone in my room I stand With these Polaroid pictures still in my hand I still have the Polaroid pictures that we took Containing all our memories for the books I wish that the pain was one I could overlook But even if I did then I would still write this hook