Helevated

Ooh Crazy nobody knows, how much a nigga really goes thru Bout' every time I spoke, was told it was not how I'm supposed to Feel They forcing the therapy on us cause people have problems communicating what's real They can't be exposed To what goes on outside, where life looks different than on phones I'm filled with too much pride, to talk to God about my struggles Like don't you see me dying? Ain't got no strength within these muscles The devil is a lie, as I dig deep he hands me shovels Feel like I shoot my shots, secluded in a fuckin bubble Trying to protect myself but, ricochets off top, more like a royal rumble Wrestling with thoughts as I try to stay humble I'm working hard for dough but that's not how the cookie crumbles I'm way too down on my luck Feels like there's no one I trust To keep momentum going Wish someone would just give a f*ck At least enough to show me what I'm doing ain't just for nothing Cause time ticking like a bomb hope I don't self-destruct My lord please display a way to save my soul for keeps I can't be, devastated Mind can't be, hell a faded I can't seem to find a way to take this pain from me Need to be, medicated Need to be, elevated My brain is exhausted How many cells will I burn off from the 8th that I bought Mixed in with drugs can I realize when there's sum a little off Or will I get lost in the sauce cause I ain't care to talk Stay complacent cause I'm too scared to walk By myself so I bring down bystanders to help me get across to where my dreams can Grow Act like I don't need 'em no more and split as I seem to throw Them away like disposables (go) like I don't know how karma goes (no) Surprised when I be all alone (woah) Committed to these harder roads shy of ending journeys With the pressure of getting it right as you approach your 30s The longer the wait becomes the more you ending up hurting less you've given up And let the world take over your worries I battle thoughts like that the most Mind be almost comatose As I see all but small results where I put my focus my vision going toast Trying not to burn out, I'm tired But I don't sleep I guess because I don't want to become a liar no My lord please display a way to save my soul for keeps I can't be, devastated Mind can't be, hell a faded I can't seem to find a way to take this pain from me Need to be, medicated Need to be, elevated Ooh Ooh