lying to myself

Always gotta try my best Even when I feel the worst It's nothin' but emptiness Paired with a lack of self-worth Girl, what you did to me was unfair And I probably could have used some help Now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere And I feel some things that I've never felt I try and tell you that I don't care Tried to say I was focused on my health In the end I only end up lying Lying to myself Guess it's finally time that I quit lying to myself Just start crying 'bout life when I feel compelled To change my behavior, leave it all on the shelf Now I've gotta focus up and fix my mental health I don't know what you want from me baby girl I just know I wanna go and face the fuckin' world She asked me why, why'd I lie for Yeah, she asked me why and I wasn't fuckin' sure I guess I'm sorry For lying to myself Girl, what you did to me was unfair And I probably could have used some help Now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere And I feel some things that I've never felt I try and tell you that I don't care Tried to say I was focused on my health In the end I only end up lying Lying to myself Yeah, I'm a fuckin' liar So I'll swear it's fine this time 'Cause you're my one desire And for once in my life I'm facing something dire But I think I'll be alright Without getting higher I think I might have to lie again It's alright, if I see you in the end Maybe one day we can be friends But for now that shit's pretend Girl, what you did to me was unfair And I probably could have used some help Now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere And I feel some things that I've never felt I try and tell you that I don't care Tried to say I was focused on my health In the end I only end up lying Lying to myself