I Miss The Old Days

Recently I been looking at the clouds wondering where you're at Looking up to you as if you're my older brother I remember all of our memories all the laughed cries and remorse You made it so much harder to be here The people would've loved you but we can never stand up on that podium That was our main goal I'm so fucked up I wish I could have another conversation with you Shits getting harder to bare Why'd you do it? Why'd you do it? I'm always asking myself I know I'm all alone Even if that's not true it seems as if I'm on my own Always have your pictures by my side Can't ever let go Even if it's not healthy I'm missing the f*ck out of you I hope I proved my fucking point You said no one would notice besides me You know damn well that, that wasn't the truth Now we're all alone in this grey ocean Me and Ghost In remorse I'm so fucking sorry Why'd you kill yourself? That's a never ending question I deserve to be 6ft under Not you I'm so fucking tired of this I remember all the shit we did to your older brother only if we could go back You left me to die all alone Ever since you died I'm so fucking lost I want revenge But there's no revenge to be handed