Worst Days

Oh, today was one of the worst days I wanna drink 'til I don't remember Why I started drinking in the first place And still I give it my best try But it's barely enough for me to get by Will it be this way until the day I Die? Makes me wanna say goodbye Took a leap of faith and found out I can't fly There are no deep metaphors Nor clever wordplay That could describe how awful I feel every single fucking day There are no words you could say To make this better, so Don't even bother to pray It seems no matter what I do The pain is bound to stay I do my best to keep the Demons at bay, so I commenced to start my defense Said the buck stops here And built up a fence But it only kept the demons in And kept outside my family and friends So here I am all alone My skills at self critique are kept well honed Living through the same clone Of the most horrible day, Pain is all I've known, And I'm tired of ambling down this lonely road Who or what can help me with this load? I cry for help but no one seems to hear my call So I'm forced to get friendly with the motherfucking source of my fall Oh, today was one of the worst days I wanna drink 'til I don't remember Why I started drinking in the first place And still I give it my best try But it's barely enough for me to get by Will it be this way until the day I Die? Makes me wanna say goodbye Took a leap of faith and found out I can't fly I am cocooned in a ball of anxiety If you push and you prod You'll find the anger inside of me And I don't wanna be Just another drag on society But you can count on me To f*ck up reliably I can't even tell you how it got this bad Most days I can't muster the energy To feel even sad This misery is relentless The pain seems so senseless Is there anything that could make it worth All these sleepless nights? All the tears that have been shed from my dark, sad eyes? The loss of appetite, the attempts at suicide? Is there anything so awesome that Will make it worth living this life Where nothing seems to go right? And it makes me ashamed To hear me complain But it's hard to pretend to be strong When you're curled up crying on the floor Barely holding on To the toilet 'cause you just Finished vomiting the only meal You've had in days, Now tell me, how the f*ck am I supposed to feel? Oh, today was one of the worst days I wanna drink 'til I don't remember Why I started drinking in the first place And still I give it my best try But it's barely enough for me to get by Will it be this way until the day I Die? Makes me wanna say goodbye Took a leap of faith and found out I can't fly The situation is dire I feel uninspired The storm that I'm in Has doused my once great fire And I'm so sick and tired Of this hell that I live I can't take all the pain That life freely gives And they say that everything happens for a reason What could be a good enough reason To keep me bleeding, barely breathing? Stuck in the coldest season For destroying everything I've ever dared to believe in? Will I ever find what it is I'm seeking? Truly, I do not understand Is this suffering part of some grand plan? It's not forging me into a better person I've felt the good parts start to die Since the affair began Now I'm a mere shadow of the Promising person I used to be I'm chained to the place where dreams Come to die, and though I've tried to set Myself free I can't seem to find the key It's hard to keep a positive attitude When tears blur everything you see