For Caravaggio

Eight months from the time of this verse I am on stage, I came to vibe Out and you know how I play The crowd fixate Some of them thought I Wouldn't be great But I shut down the night and I'm smiling through haze As I'm walking off I see a kid He looks like me Know he relates His pupils dilate, As I'm going by I tell him Have faith Cause Six months ago, I was Writing through the pain Ignoring any request to Medicate, I'd rather self Destruct, and do it as an act of Faith, I'm a blood diamond I belong on the pearly gates Well right now I'm fucking you in a hotel Room I'm living off snow, liquor and Good sex I'm wrestling with faith I'm wrestling with success I'm wrestling with addiction to Working myself to death and Emotional taxes that I can't Afford to pay yet, and another One of my dreams came true Man F*ck this champagne I want my dead friends back I want to fail, I want to fall I want what's left of my heart to crack But they want my soul for the capital like South Korea But that's my black gold I learned that from Nina Let me ask you b Would you trust a flower that Doesn't want to bloom Would trust an actor that Doesn't want to act Would you trust fiction if it said it was facts I don't believe in heaven I want heaven right here The world is on fire and so am I Light bleedin out this broken heart of mine I fucked around and stole the Shine The light dimmed The gin sipped Memories Gon fade with time I'm sick of wack niggas trying To tell me how to rhyme If you were half of me you'd be Arrogant too But you ain't so thank God you were born you Question mediocrity my Answer is on cue, and if I could Choose I would have never Fallen in love with the blues My favorite colour My world outside Shade I see cover my mother Eyes I slipped my knot felt freedom You said you love me I was traumatized I spill benediction, swallow Music prescription, that's The antidote for wasted time But I'll hide my salvation between your hips I'll hide my soul between your Lips And I'll hide myself in all of this Between grey and white matter Before the thoughts eclipse And as you lay on my bed Just remember I don't believe in heaven I want heaven right here I want heaven right here I want heaven right here