Free As I Can Be

I, just, want to find, inner peace And be, free as I, can be Starved and shackled to the wall in the castle They stand too high for you to see the battle A war with no troops no guns and no missiles Just echoes and ghosts that split through the middle Long have I searched, long have I fallen It's just like blood, that isn't clotting Blood that I've shed, in this long conflict So much time spent, trying to stop it Pass me the bourbon while I think of my purpose Walk with me to the river if you wanna be a drifter Most days I drink and get so high that I drool Cause I don't understand my plan in this world My stomach turns that I can't do anything but watch it burn Or at least that's the way it feels the way that my life unpeels It's way too real I'm trying to grab a hold of something real Even when it's detrimental to the health of my mental I, just, want to find, inner peace And be, free as I, can be What was attractive at the time Is acidic to my lonely life Eating me away like the juices of a lime It is a crime but I'm self convicted Self conflicted to the point of madness De-evolving into a savage plagued by sadness When I am trapped I tend to lean Like loved ones dead and laid down to sleep I put all the weight into a bottle I do not stop till I hit the bottom I want to be free I don't want to drown So I keep drinking till I'm above ground I, just, want to find, inner peace And be, free as I, can be