I Mean It

Recently been feelin' in it I’m in it just give me a minute I feel like losing but I'm always winnin' I mean it When I wake up I be in my feelings But nobody believe it The anxiety is present F*ck Christmas and f*ck a present but I'm livin' in the present Found a girl I find her pleasant Feelin' sick all the time Of everything at all times F*ck these times Can't even leave the house But I'm always dreamin' on leavin' and makin' a livin' I don't know what to do Death seems the only response ever I have a reason this depression got me down when I’m in yachts Trynna figure out a way to live my life but I'm lost I mean it Shout out to my brothers without them id not be breathin' I would be locked up inna' death bed in heaven drinking seven and seven Wondering about my depression and the states I was living and having I'm hoping this won’t last long Cause like this ima be hit bongs I'm hoping this won’t come out as too sad of a song I'm only telling a story about my life And how everything seems wrong Recently been feelin' in it I’m in it just give me a minute I feel like losing but I'm always winnin' I mean it When I wake up I be in my feelings But nobody believe it The anxiety is present F*ck Christmas and f*ck a present but I'm livin' in the present Found a girl I find her pleasant Having classes that I hate A shitty teacher that is ass F*ck that I mean it Sitting in school wondering about what I should do Maybe just sorta' act cool and hope I don’t lose my cool All this anger inside can’t get it out gotta' hide Maybe get a car and let the ride Sitting in classes no reading glasses Only worry bout' the money Shitty jokes she thinks she’s funny Cat ears on she be a bunny Now going back to that girl just be my honey I need something to keep me company I'm only trynna' grow a company Recently been feelin' in it I’m in it just give me a minute I feel like losing but I'm always winnin' I mean it When I wake up I be in my feelings But nobody believe it The anxiety is present F*ck Christmas and f*ck a present but I'm livin' in the present Found a girl I find her pleasant