Learning How To Tell Myself The Truth

I started up the engine and I told myself I aint afraid I summoned all the confidence I needed for to drive myself away But no matter where I am babe I always find myself outside your door Am I under a spell can someone tell me what the hell is this all for I thought that I could carry the whole world on my back but I was wrong Who am I trying to fool baby you and I both know I aint that strong Maybe if I dig a little deeper I'll find something I missed But babe what if I find a little proof that you and I just don't exist All I am All I'll be Everything I can and cannot see On the run On the loose Searching for the substance of abuse I'm learning how to tell myself the truth I guess staying up all night and fighting with yourself takes it's toll I bought myself a ride into the darkness but it cost me my soul If I go I'm going crazy if I stay there's no telling what I'll do You said you'd love me anyway but darling we both know that just aint true All I am All I'll be Everything I can and cannot see On the run On the loose Searching for the substance of abuse I'm learning how to tell myself the truth I'm learning how to tell myself the truth