Only Hurting Myself

Spinning webs of lies Only hurting myself Never cutting ties I play this game too well I've been losing focus on my meadow full of roses That's my silver lining it's the reason I do keep on trying I've been siding with the devil on my shoulder he been lying Every night I'm digging holes deeper still I'm climbing In circles get tossed by the waves in this bottle Hope this message reaches you before it all goes gone On the surface I'm a average person I don't like attention close the curtains I keep hyperfixating I can't stop overthinking situations It's draining can never let go even when it's fading overcomplicating Back n' forth playing tug of war Let it run it's course never cut the source back for more It's a constant chore fa-fa feed my addiction Couple steps forward then I take it back Lying to myself that I'm not attached My life goes wrong When I feel when I feel When I feel right It's who I am Cause I still cause I still Cause I still fight Spinning webs of lies Only hurting myself Never cutting ties I play this game too well Just so distant with a lot of stuff Like I'm not there for milestones and it's hard enough I feel defeat tryna be a father of the home with no house I'm incomplete When she leave and I'm alone Though so grateful every time I see my angel I'm so proud never doubt I'll be there for you Every second I'ma around I do cherish you Anytime you hit the ground I'ma carry you Through your ups n' downs I'ma care for you My life goes wrong When I feel when I feel When I feel right It's who I am Cause I still cause I still Cause I still fight