Hellucinations

Staring at my ceiling, losing every thought What was I thinking Buried my soul in my backyard before I hit pre-teens and I carried hate inside my heart that shit keeps fucking bleeding Carried the weight you never held that shit been deep depleting Slowly holding up Holding my guts It's getting scary now Figured someone come Come help me up I think I buried now No one give me none Send me to hell That's just barrio now Don’t think I’m tripping I'm just trying to get up out of your town I did what had to be done So I’m the ones who’s chiefing Break down the ounces I ain’t fucking with no damn policemen Barely sustaining on my own two feet they won’t defeat me You think I’m crazy Pewee Loko breaking down your chisme Who you giving up if not the one that's always held it down Tugging on the rope chop down the branch and let the body down Cuz all my eyes see is pain And all my clowns do is frown Still dropping bodies for gain Still never making a sound DOWN, DOWN, DOWN… HEADIN DOWN DOWN, DOWN, DOWN... HEADING DOWN Down off the pills again Pop them like prescription said Been training for this moment since my ass was maybe six I don’t really remember my memory a fucking bitch Diss me when I need it the most Ain’t that some shit Work a nine to five for someone else’s pocket Dropping all the things they hate and stopping all the things that's popping Clock in all these fucking hours watching cowards kill devour Losing sleep can’t figure out why my life is a shit shower Who the f*ck is you Where the f*ck am I There’s supposed to be a white light Where your fucking eyes Why am I dead inside Lost track of what I need these flames consume me every night Momma stay praying for me I hear her every night Hallucinating on the dirt Steady putting in the work What's worst than pushing all this weight is pushing through the hurt Hallucinating on the curb Devil’s waiting with the herb What's worst than praying for the end is actually being heard DOWN, DOWN, DOWN… HEADIN DOWN DOWN, DOWN, DOWN... HEADING DOWN Further down than I hoped Climbing this icy slope Gripping the tek like money gripping on the white man soul They told me let it go Moms said learn the status quote Can't get no job no hope Felons they get the rope I take my time no lies Keep friends past certain lines I shoot right past your proof Kurt Cobain in disguise I should have stayed in school might have kept some my youth Innocence dies with me No stress No Stems No seeds Nena calls once a week burn more with J and T Still kicking packing weed still rapping planting seeds Maxing inside this afterlife ain’t bad when you're a G Feels like my fucking teens Living out broken dreams Prophetic little dweeb she used to look past me Now I’m the wave in Sea But ain’t no surfing me King LIL RAY been on the conquest Since 2014 Die if you disagree LITTLE RAY LITTLE PEACE