ILLER (feat. Joey Bravo)

I'm in a personal battle within myself All my demons got my mind trapped in this hell Mentally ill, it's like the devil cast a spell Now my actions are bad, I'm not living well I'm in a self-sabotage, self-destruct mode Lost inside my consciousness, darkest tunnels Shadows got me locked in an awful struggle Lost soul, trying to sift through all this rubble Destruction, I've caused a world of pain I lost my way, thoughts filled with guilt and shame Turned to self-hate and it's only ill to blame I let the darkness consume me and fill my brain Now the ones that used to love me are filled with hate Towards me and wish me dead, wanna seal my fate Is this a nightmare? Am I sleeping or still awake I lost my will to live, I'd rather be in a grave But that's exactly what the devil wants for me to quit And give in, blast my brains out or slit my wrists Or sell my soul, be a slave and be with him Or use my gift of music for evil influence You almost had me, motherfucker Yeah, you did, I have to admit But hell no, I ain't about to quit You had me asleep in the mix, in a pile of shit Just like the rest of the populace with your foulest tricks I'm about to outwit the devil, cause I have awakened I'm searching for redemption, defying the matrix The chaos I created caused my mind to make shifts My eyes are open, time to make some changes Dante's Inferno, raising my vibration Consciousness awakens for my liberation I gotta battle all my demons and face them And go through the levels of my transformation Darkness fell upon this man His final hour was close at hand His demons crawl in search of blood To leave his mind down in the dumps A spark inside him shall be found He has the soul for getting down He'll stand and face the howls of hell And fight against the devil's realm The foulest demons in the air The ones from all his living years The grisly ghouls his mind consumed Are closing in to seal his doom So now he fights to stay alive His body never shivers Just a mere mortal who resists the evils Then he, nobody, is ill-a Let go of the fear, you hear me Let go of the guilt, the shame Let go of all that self-doubt Let go of all the self-judgment And every single thing that's made you feel less than Let go of it, dog Let go of whatever was And walk into what is Use that pain, control that anger But be a monster Remember who the f*ck you are Be the illest Go out there and be ferocious, you hear me Be ferocious Yo, Ill, get up Ill, wake up