Fixation (feat. RainingOnRoses)

With each song I am so nervous Walk the talk and go the furthest Hoping you will be left wordless But instead I'm feeling worthless Have I lived and served my purpose? Barely clinging to the surface. Throw up sorrow, wine red curses Breath borrowed that I can't purchase I've got some shit I need to get off my chest I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess I've got some shit I need to get off my chest I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess I need you I am so broken I can't speak I know I'm choking Understand that I'm not joking Not much longer I'll be going I can't breath this shit is hopeless You are still my main focus Kind of crazy girl I know it I can love you let me show it Miss you here beside me I know I left you crying But girl I'm fucking dying I promise that I'm trying I know you don't believe That But girl I fucking mean that Hold my breath Can't take this stress Live my life I'm so depressed Why am I here I don't even know, I Really don't care If Your by my side Hold my breath Can't take this stress Live my life I'm so depressed Why am I here I don't even know, I Really don't care If Your by my side Hold my breath Can't take this stress Live my life I'm so depressed Why am I here I don't even know, I Really don't care If your by my side Hold my breath Can't take this stress Live my life I'm so depressed Why am I here I don't even know, I Really don't care If your by my side It's therapeutic to write out how I feel The drugs, the pain, the daily ordeal Only few of you know exactly what's real The rest just see the hand that I deal Can't undo this mask, it won't seem to peel Black and white outside, internally won't heal Stitching's' torn apart, revealing whats concealed Heart slowly failing as I turn the wheel I've got some shit I need to get off my chest I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess I've got some shit I need to get off my chest I've been stuck in my head and I know it's not the best With all I put out, it's hard to feel blessed Trying every single day to not Smith and Wess