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I was never a C student maybe a D student
As a kid I was never there I would stay truant
It felt like a prison to me, how do they do it?
Other kids just push through it They don't have a problem with it
Deadlines never miss it, Homework I never did it,
No one ever came to visit, Gave up on me quick,
Plus I was a menace in the class, rarely ever listened
Always cracking jokes in the back, so I get attention
Making observations, other kids wouldn't dare to mention
Now I'm sittin in detention, drawing in my notebook
Glancing at the clock every minute til it's over
How am I gonna last when it's only October
How am I supposed know what to be when I grow up
If this is what it's like than I'd rather not show up
It more fun playing games sittin on the sofa
Being somebody other than who they told ya
I just don't know what I'm supposed to be
I just don't know what I'm supposed to be
My parents look at me hopefully
But they just don't know what I'll grow to be
I just don't know what I want to be
I just don't know what I'm supposed to be
My parents look at me hopefully
But they just don't know what I'll grow to be
On the weekends, just sitting in my room and what im thinkin'
I got this feelin in my chest and it sinkin'
I hear my parents always fighting so im freakin'
I'm wondering why God threw me in the deep end
I'm doing everything I can just to breathe in
The anxiety is heavy for a reason
I was raised Catholic, so I got demons
God don't care about me or my feelings
I'm a born sinner, so they askin' me to repent
It doesn't make sense to me, how could I believe it
Thinkin' that I'm just too young to understand it
Seems like an awful good way to take advantage
Of those who would rather have faith than a plan
It's easier to wish than it is to demand
The best from yourself when it's hard just to stand
Minorities and poor people fucked by the man
But how am I to change it from my twin sized bed
In a room, that I share with my brother over there
It's easier to give up and just not care
I'd rather play co-op it seems more fair
I just don't know what I want to be
I just don't know what I'm supposed to be
My parents look at me hopefully
But they just don't know what I'll grow to be
I just don't know what I want to be
I just don't know what I'm supposed to be
My parents look at me hopefully
But they just don't know what I'll grow to be