No Alibi

Another day; I've fallen short So far behind I quit keeping score (And I know; I'm a failure; and nothing more) Can't get it right; it's like a better life is just on the other side But hindsight is; no alibi Another day; I've fallen short So far behind; I quit keeping score I keep dreaming of those "better days" (Better days) But I'm the only one; that's standing in my way (Asleep in the bed I have made) I can't seem to shake this never ending dream I can't seem to separate from the worst in me I already hate myself I know I'm better off as someone else (I'm deadweight) You were wrong to put your faith in me Just choose a side; Give in; or fight for my life (Before the walls just cave in) Is there hope? Once I have broke Descend or elevate; Just choose a fuckin' lane A slow decay to a brand new hell (Brand new hell) I point the finger but I blame myself (Blame myself) It can't seem to get much worse; It's like a fuckin' curse Downward spiral; Bringing me the clarity I need Another step I might fall off the edge Another wrong turn and I'm lost again You can't even call me a friend You were wrong to put your faith in me