The Essence of Misery

When I was young So did shine the sun The relationship was immediate And to you I was obedient But soon the winter came As with dark clouds and pours of rain My emotions did turn cold Anger and hatred consumed my mold I've ever known you You were as clear as the air And in the silence I could hear you everywhere But now this sickness is spreading And consuming me As the walls turn in on me It's getting difficult to breathe Father Illuminance Where is your presence? This is torture mentally It's the essence of misery, misery Father Illuminator You are the creator I seek thy afterglow But where can I run to, where can I go? Father of all creation I pray for your illumination You are the true light source But where is your life force? This is torture mentally It's the essence of misery I just cannot endure I need your light to break forth, break forth This is torture mentally It's the essence of misery But here in my solitude I feel your light begin to break through