What I Mean

All of me packed up in my sleeves Swore I'd leave when I got older Promise me, if you still exist Future me, don't let us drown If I stand there by the water Colder, will my body give up And see I fear the end Wanna see how far I take it Make me want to tear up my skin You'll see just what I mean I can't choose And I know if I could I never would, but here I am I must lose So I can one day use All the pain to set me free I still breathe, but I don't feel a thing Maybe you could change that I still scream, but no one hears a thing So much wasted potential If I stand there by the water Colder, will my body give up And see I fear the end Wanna see how far I take it Make me want to tear up my skin You'll see just what I mean