Don't Wanna Be Here

Lately becoming someone I don't recognize The things that I hide And the shame i feel inside Catholic guilt All my filth The life that I've denied myself I got an empty feeling that I can't explain Numb yet in pain Ugly dumb yet vain Narcissism drowned in self hatred You say it's in my head But the way I feel is real and sincere Gone and reappears From the blue becomes clear That I don't wanna be here anymore Not with you Not with me There's nowhere I want to be To dissolve Disappear I don't wanna be here anymore