Bitter Taste

I want to see you For what you really are Repeating cycles that We have without reprieve This is the way out Change for the better Of ourselves before the past remains Engulfing everything Living on in your memory Leaves me so incomplete As I bare your crosses I start to break Since when was it enough To let the history repeat The bitter taste From biting cheeks To stay quiet or stand up These repressed memories Make me want to see How I can change Repeating fractures That you made I want to grow up Change my ways Be better than You did for me Removing myself from The equation of your grave You never cared I had to make this For myself You were never really there To repair myself I must be so aware Of all the things that I cannot change I am only as good As myself You were never really there We can never forgive We can only forget These memories The bitter taste From biting cheeks To stay quiet or stand-up These repressed memories Make me want to see How I can change As I evaporate From this pain