Flaying Skin

Sunken by things I thought were buried An inner retch is shaking me again As I recall of memories forgotten Of thoughts I never wanted to retain I miss the times when I let love in I used to drink my life with clarity The seconds into hours turned wasted The rules undone remained the same Nothing affects me My fears don't let me free Can't find forgiveness I'm flaying my own skin I can not see the meaning of existence Can't recognize what's left inside of me Cutting my soul slitting my own gizzards Spilling words I've never wished to feel By staying straight while crumbling down Denying to crack up once again By breaking down I fell apart I saw myself alone into decline I shot my veins with poisons from the past Numbness was so deep inside The sorrow once I thought I already beat Arises now to drag me back again Nothing affects me Without control within I can't forgive me There's no more skin to flay