Special

Mummy always told me, son you're special But lately when I think about it The mind wants to wrestle with that thought Asking myself do I really feel that in my core Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war Pain in my heart but what for Right now i'm not even sure anymore Back and forth with the same things It's like its never been enough Even when i tried to give my best It's getting harder to believe in my dreams I find it harder not to doubt in myself less and less Take this cup away from me Lord i'm feeling stressed Take this cup away from me Lord I need your help I fight these thoughts in my head Thoughts in my bed Thoughts when I'm chilling Look these thoughts don't rest And I wanna say more but I'd rather say less Seen better days I know i'm far from my best I trust in God He got my back I need to stay strong Holding onto every promise Need them daylong Daylong Pray you keep me and my day ones Day ones We go way back so I'll pray on You see everything I dont so can you lead me I'm still struggling with this can you see me See me In your arms keep me See me In your arms keep me I trust in God He got my back I need to stay strong Holding onto every promise Need them daylong Daylong Pray you keep me and my day ones Day ones We go way back so I'll pray on You see everything I dont so can you lead me I'm still struggling with this can you see me Feel like I'm stuck I just rap to get my words out Life got me tired, tryna work out How much more I can take Till I burn out Tryna stay positive But i'm still tryna learn how Hard to keep faith when can't see the birds eye Right now, i'm on the verge I, hate the table that i'm at Just turn mine No straight lines here Just blurred lines Hate the table that i'm at Just turn mine No straight lines here just No straight lines here Just blurred lines I trust in God He got my back I need to stay strong Holding onto every promise need them daylong Daylong Pray you keep me and my day ones We go way back so I'll pray on You see everything I dont so can you lead me I'm still struggling with this can you see me See me In your arms keep me See me In your arms keep me I'm still praying come through you I'm still praying i trust you I'm still praying come through you I'm still praying i trust you I trust you I need to stay strong Mummy always told me, son you're special But lately when I think about it The mind wants to wrestle With that thought Asking myself do I really feel that in my core Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war Sometimes i find it hard to keep my eyes in focus It's so easy To find yourself here when your heart it hopeless But life taught me That's when I really need you closest