Lost my mind

Ive tried everything there is no point People talk to me like they're at gunpoint Why you tryna tell me how to cope F*ck all that il rather hang on a rope We've all done fucked shit, i cant atone No one would care if i cut through my bone No one can love me, prolly cause I'm ugly I'm just weird, pushing everyone from me I gave you my heart, and anything i had You gave me fake emotions, made me look bad But you showed that you liked me, and i wouldn't turn my back Cause i trusted you, now I'm alone feeling like trash Love sinker, dumbass singer Knew who was loyal, but a big overthinker Sometimes my problems are gone with a blunt F*ck i haven't been sober in months I leave this earth when no one gives a f*ck Or when I'm at my lowest, just ready to give up Got problems with my friends, theyve given up partly F*ck it, maybe this is artistry I can't live man I'm losing sleep Can't trust Its DTB I got friends But at the same time I don't think anyone really likes me You're not alone so you don't get what I mean My life been a fucked up dream It's 5 am and I'm laying in bed With messages left on seen I've lost my mind Not even a question I'm in crippling depression I've lost my mind Not even a question I'm in crippling depression Used to feel so alive like nothing could stop me Now my heart's broken My mind in a copy A never ending cycle of nightmares that I can't escape Trapped in this darkness I might just die today Everyone is negative in some way Makes me wanna stay away Never gave no fucks, thats my take How much they paid you to be fake No its not an honest mistake You were born a snake I am not someone who meant the hate But this is what happens when you met your fate Once i die maybe the cycle breaks? You call me a friend as you pull out a knife You stab me in the back, not once but twice Friends for life, but that's a straight up lie You ain't gotta clue, about Ride or Die I'm surrounded by wolves that are dressed like sheep Telling straight lies, dry snitching on me Claiming it wasn't you, behind the line up glass You straight pointed out me, to save your own ass Rather sweat buckets, to search out peace Than spilling gallons of blood, fighting demons in me Have you ever wondered why you're stuck in this life Might as well die if you're not here forever right? Well the river runs short and I'm not gonna lie If I could rap as some rappers out there Maybe I'd try