something to do

I've been doing fine this year, even though no one asked Left all my pain behind Haven't met a new boy in too long, so I feel secure and happy But the past comes back every time Cuz I've been secure for a minute, but I miss the drama when you're in it Like the kind when you cry in the shower when its ending And I know I'm sounding toxic but I'm so, bored and I need it I just wanna fall in love to get back up again Cuz every girl loves all the pain and insecurity that comes when your falling in love There's a Rush I get when you tell me that your using me, cuz at least I feel something so even Though it's Bad and unhealthy, I can't stop myself from the possibility that I could have my heart broken if I wanted to And it would give me something to do Before I shut down id, get pushed around then say I love you, then you try to walk away You'd come running back which means I won, you know I gotta keep it going, cuz the Drama makes it interesting Cuz every girl loves all the pain and insecurity that comes when your falling in love There's a Rush I get when you tell me that your using me, cuz at least I feel something so even Though it's Bad and unhealthy, I can't stop myself from the possibility that I could have my heart broken if I wanted to And it would give me something to do Cuz being bored and having emotions, setup up to fail You always end up hurt But there's something about the rush I get, that keeps me going Mhm Cuz every girl loves all the pain and insecurity that comes when your falling in love There's a Rush I get when you tell me that your using me, cuz