Focus

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins No matter how hard I try I just wanna end my life When I focus Focus No matter what I write I always feel down Everything that I lost can never be found All the trauma in my life it can't be rewound Everyday that I wake up I know I'm grave bound Never thought I would feel like this In my 20s and all I want is to not feel like I'm 40 years older than I'm supposed to be Not physically but mentally I'm just not loving where I've turned out to be To me I feel like this place that I have been stuck in this rut And this overwhelming feeling I gotta be something or what I hated Seeing my parents being I will become it Broke away so I could make something from it Yeah Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins No matter how hard I try I just wanna end my life When I focus Focus Even tho I'm better now Living life in a different town Lately I've been riding with a different crowd But the feelings they've been yelling loud Hoping I can make 'em proud Can I make them proud When all I do is always hold myself back I'm hanging from a rope is how I feel No slack I'm tryna to go somewhere But I'm just standing still All of these mountains and I can't even move an ant hill No matter what I do I lay awake at night No matter where I go it Never feels right No matter what I do I'm always lost And it leaves me stuck with all these thoughts I got these Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain Can't escape the pain It's running through my veins No matter how hard I try I just wanna end my life When I focus Focus