Vices

Every night I wish that I could be sober Pick it up cause I'm thinking again Every time that I got shit on my mind I see you in the corner of my eyelids Hold my head down Don't care if I sink or drown I don't care what your advice is I'm just living with my vices I think my problems grabbing hold of me I've been fearing getting older more then ever lately My mental health's on a decline and I mean rapidly it's sad to see I can't go any night without an aid for sleep It's tragedy Actively An assault on my sanity Happily I medicate the pain I'm practically happy see? I'm like a tapestry Unraveling from every seam My life's the biggest comedy no one has ever seen I've lost so many friends Used to call them family Lies and a lack of apathy With friends that's a disasterpiece Should I get therapy Take some pills and quit smoking weed Maybe I'll be relieved or just maybe I'll feel deceived switch My motivation Deepest of meditations Pushing myself with negatives Inward with provocation Restless I lay awake Thinking bout my mistakes Trying to change my ways While deeper I dig my grave Vices Deeper I dig my grave Deeper I dig my grave Every night I wish that I could be sober Pick it up cause I'm thinking again Every time that I got shit on my mind I see you in the corner of my eyelids Hold my head down Don't care if I sink or drown I don't care what your advice is I'm just living with my vices Lately I've been a mess Imprisoned in my distress while I'm Dealing with all my issues and angers as I progress A prism of inner wisdom has sprouted from my unrest I can feel it inside my chest Sit here dreaming of my success imma Lyrical killer My focus is on reflection Here recently my complexion These songs are just my confessions Split my head open Dissect it I'm hoping you read the message Should all these feelings I have be accepted or just rejected My cope Taking drinks while I smoke Think of work Get perturb Then lay in bed with no hope I think my life is joke I'm at the end of the road The richest man yet I'm broke I got my vices Only price The sudden pull of a rope Every night I wish that I could be sober Pick it up cause I'm thinking again Every time that I got shit on my mind I see you in the corner of my eyelids Hold my head down Don't care if I sink or drown I don't care what your advice is I'm just living with my vices Every night I wish that I could be sober Pick it up cause I'm thinking again Every time that I got shit on my mind I see you in the corner of my eyelids Hold my head down Don't care if I sink or drown I don't care what your advice is I'm just living with my vices C'mon Hello Oh hey I've been I've been thinking I don't know I just don't know What I'm doing anymore I just have a lack of direction or something I don't know Just I'm exhausted So exhausted Hello? He- Hello? Hello??