In My Head

As of lately I been goin nuts Serotonins low, really need to sober up Creating distance cause I don't know how to open up To many open wounds for you to have to sow them shut My mind races as if there was a finish line Life is short, it could be taken at any given time If Im a sinner talk to god it's between him and I I'm just living in the moment slowly getting by To many problems, not enough solutions I just want peace like I was throwing up the deuces I been living in a permanent state of confusion Second guessing what is real like it's all an illusion If your not happy change your ways I know you've heard that But it ain't easy when your stuck And you've given it your all But your all isn't enough Trying hard just not to fall Cause it's hard to get back up Yeah it's hard to get back up In my head I feel so alone I don't know how much longer I can go When I wake up in the morning yeah I'm upset Felt the reaper creeping thought that I was up next Once again I lay awake with all my demons Can't even close my eyes cause when I do I always see them Yeah It's a battle that I'll never win Happiness is something I believe that I will never get I go through life with a smile that is fake Because I hate when people ask if I'm okay My mentality is negative I tried to change yeah I promise that I hate this shit It makes me miserable including all of those around And I don't wanna be the reason someone's feeling down I got a lot of bad habits I been tryna break Like living in the past being a prisoner of my mistakes So many things I wish that I could go back and erase Need to focus on the present my futures all I can change Im going crazy But nobody can save me People shooting for the stars and I haven't started aiming So much time in life but so little to live it We're no longer focused on building memories, only digits It's no wonder why everybody's depressed Working our whole life away cause everybody needs a check A lot of days when I awake I just wanna leave Start fresh and I would leave behind everything In my head I feel so alone I don't know how much longer I can go When I wake up in the morning yeah I'm upset Felt the reaper creeping thought that I was up next Once again I lay awake with all my demons Can't even close my eyes cause when I do I always see them Yeah It's a battle that I'll never win Happiness is something I believe that I will never get I go through life with a smile that is fake Because I hate when people ask if I'm okay