Personal

I feel the distance since this shit been different Didn't ask for the complications it's just a given Walked around the obstacles but you keeping pivot Hard to view my perspective since we got different lenses hurts my heart that your present but I don't feel your presence Huh Blurred reflections can't ever mirror your true affection My mental headed to new directions Hard to please my surroundings cause they don't get it Second guess a lot cause I always seem to regret it Cant seem to understand why it's harder to keep my sanity, when I'm alone I know I'm gone but could pick up the phone Never aiming for disappointment My life choices are based off trusting my inner voices Living for others and being judged for my latest spoken Words of encouragement Though it's flourishing c part of me ain't fit with moment I feel the lowest Whether I am near or far You're on my mind I'm grinding out till the break of dawn c shame that I'm gone But I gotta see what it's all for I know that there's much more I promise that it ain't personal It ain't personal ct times I ain't mentally there Y'all deserve the world but what I offer just isn't fair Constant apologies, close my eyes as i sit in prayer No need for reminders on what I'm missing, trust I'm aware Tired of politicking With people who put in position Giving me cold shoulders cnd Hoping for ego lifting Feels like no matter, where my attention is fully driven Gears are shifted towards what was missing but it was hidden Sacrificing time but always putting effort Never read between the lines it was never that clever Just been taking care of mines but there was always extra Take a lot of pride in ties, I hope they never sever Contemplated on going back to my ways before I was an artist the more I achieve the more they tarnish which makes me heartless Motive was family and making sure I can cover expenses The more I achieve The more I see how they feel the distance Damn Whether I am near or far You're on my mind I'm grinding out till the break of dawn c shame that I'm gone But I gotta see what it's all for I know that there's much more I promise that it ain't personal It ain't personal