Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I've inhaled the breath of a serpent so long Forgot how it felt to live for my own Phantoms of the past still haunt my mind You're long gone, but memories still left behind First told myself all I needed was closure Then I told myself that I never wanted ya Then I told myself I could do it without you Now I rarely talk to myself about you Now I realize you were bad for me Now I realize I was bad for myself Now I realize I will never be the same Now I realize I will never fully realize And yet despite that, you find your way back Never to my heart, but always to my head Your tendrils nestled deep in my subconscious Certain things remind me of my dormant feelings deep inside me I will always fight it Feelings never subsiding Blood runs cold whenever I stop and think about you It's both fear and anger Self-regret and danger I wish I'd forget you But you changed my worldview