Misery

I let you get the best of me But you'll never have the recipe Now I cut you off You can't have the rest of me But you keep on tested me Until I snap and make you feel my misery My demons lie inside The pains to much to hide Peace is all I wanna find But maybe they all lied No one's really by my side I'm not letting you slide Your just a thought inside It's about time you died The last time you ever lied Get the hell out of my mind I try to live a good life But my demons stab me with a knife When will you realize I'm not tryna victimize, I just wanna fix these lies Yeah I let you get the best of me But you'll never have the recipe Now I cut you off You can't have the rest of me But you keep on tested me Until I snap and make you feel my misery I'm just gonna lie to myself And not act as I'm actually dying in hell Cause it's been so long that I felt That I didn't realize you broke my walls until you left I know I'm always in my head And acting depressed And upset Chemical imbalance Ain't even nowhere to begin Faking everything just to be okay I think your mistaken I'm about to break Why the f*ck am I'm still awake I think im addicted to feeling like shit Yeah I let you get the best of me But you'll never have the recipe Now I cut you off You can't have the rest of me But you keep on tested me Until I snap and make you feel my misery I'm stressing myself out with all these lies Until I'm bent out in anger And my conscious has one hell of a twist I'm done pretending Tired of acting like this is a picnic When it isn't And every now and again I feel different Feels like I'm laying here in a coffin I must be going crazy cause I feel it often Even when I can't blame myself All I do is blame myself And as soon as I see it changing My head starts to race again Even when I am deep in sleep dreaming of the pain in me Yeah I let you get the best of me But you'll never have the recipe Now I cut you off You can't have the rest of me But you keep on tested me Until I snap and make you feel my misery