Raging Dreams

Can someone please explain to me Why I feel this pain in me All these demons draining me Can't escape they're chasing me All I'm doing is craving sleep Fed up of all these raging dreams Got these emotions changing me I feel like I'm failing beneath it all within me If this is my destiny then death is the key Right now I'm falling, no one hears me calling I open my mouth to shout but no words come out I keep my head down hoping to fade into the background I want to feel okay Sick of being in pain I want to get rid of all this weight I just want to be okay This dark cloud was supposed to have a silver lining Drowning in the thought of dying I want to take off my mask I want to run from my past I don't like constantly looking back I am in pain, all these voices driving me insane Thing is I've been down this road before It only leads to a silent war But don't worry I'll be fine, I'll just shut myself inside My life's been declined and reinstated to it's death Falling into the darkness as I breathe my final breath Suicide has my mind in danger Cause you don't know me like you think you do F*ck life i ain't even gonna write it back I know I gotta get this off my chest I'm not afraid to be a bullet in your head But there's no one to blame Just forget what I said Why should I even bother trying? Seems like slowly inside I'm dying