Defense

It's darker this time Yea Had to take some time and realize that life ain't always good But God is always good, and some days you might lose Back to back and it's ok you'll win another day Don't be your on obstacle, so just get out the way I tell myself that I'm ok, but I be really lying Took a lot to write this song cause I ain't been inspired These past event that just took place just left me Mesmerized And it cut me so deep that I'm surprised that I'm still alive Don't know why I still hold my breath I can't come up for air And at night when I'm alone I just sit back in stare When I know it ain't nothing there But I guess I hope it is As man this ain't really how you supposed to live But I been out of touch When I come alive, It like a rush You can't soak up game, if you don't hush Unh huh I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck But I never doubt him Cause I know he coming clutch Carry all this weight, to me it's light Unh huh Some nights I still cry and that's alright Unh huh I've been of mind not out of sight I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight Ok I tell myself tomorrow is another day Then I wake up and realize that I'm still not ok I can't even stand today My head been so low so long that I feel that it's stuck this way Strapped in these emotions roller coasting I can't navigate Cast away I'm just tryna take control Hold my myself accountable when I know I can't save my soul You been by my side since I was born I hate you had to go I just been so angry that I feel I might go up in smoke It's ok What they tell me every time I'm bout to cry Looking at myself and it get harder to identify Tell people I'm good then get upset cause I know it's a lie We living on borrowed time Racing to the finish line Can't even find my destination Lord I swear my heat been pacing Lost a source of light that's in my life and now my days are shady Kiss and hug my wife cause she so strong and plus she so amazing Knowing that my mom can't hold my son I swear it really breaks me down Yea When I come alive, It like a rush You can't soak up game, if you don't hush Unh huh I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck But I never doubt him Cause I know he coming clutch Carry all this weight, to me it's light Unh huh Some night I still cry and that's alright Unh huh I've been of mind not out of sight I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight When I come alive, It like a rush You can't soak up game, if you don't hush Unh huh I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck But I never doubt him Cause I know he coming clutch Carry all this weight, to me it's light Unh huh Some nights I still cry and that's alright Unh huh I've been of mind not out of sight I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight