Apathetic

Sad life This being I have is pathetic I am not needing the people around me To empathize, and say they get it No, I want no one talk about it When I can just put it in song The days that im feeling I'm not like myself I'll live in the darkness But not stay for long They won't get a hold of me Happened before I knew they were the enemy They want control of me More than my demons The folks are surrounding me I do not wanna breathe I do not wanna live up Inside of a life When the try to be good Isn't good enough I do not make the cut Cause no one is choosing me I couldn't make it up Feel like im getting stuck Needing a moment of silence Cause anyone hear me Cause I have been screaming it out Fighting my battles alone This is my business You need to get out That's why imma lie And put on a mask Not putting a burden On all of my friends The weight on my shoulders is heavy But you'll never know it You won't see the crack Can you see it I only need this When im fighting for my life Write it out till im alright Now can you see it I only need this When im fighting for my life Write it out till im alright A crappy magician I'm messing the trick up I try to be good just to balance it Abracadabra I'm still feeling trapped Even though im escaping Its not even locked up Is it an illusion It's blocking my vision It don't even matter Never see through it Another analogy Nobody's proud of me Not in a good life Hoping im boutta be Keeping my focus On something to let it out Speak to myself And I think I can hear me now Voices are lower I think im getting loud Finally hearing the person inside of me Telling me, know that ill be alright Work to get better to free your night Try to be something, and be the kind The kind of person that we need in life Can you see it I only need this When im fighting for my life Write it out till im alright Now can you see it I only need this When im fighting for my life Write it out till im alright