I Hate Me

I swear that I hate me sometimes And how I can be I hate how my mind is making everything Look so differently Cause what you see And what I see Are just two separate things It’s the way that I have lived In my life growing up That changes my perspective In a crowd of people But the voices always cover em Loudest thing is mind Is all the suffering Start to feel some pain But act like it’s nothing and Play to be happy When you start asking “How you been? Make it ease Just so I could get some weight off Waiting on delay So the problems could just take off Then I would be okay With my feet up on the ground No more voices in my head Saying Joy will never come around Cause I deserve to be happy Like everybody else And no one will support me Like I do myself Cause I’ve been on my own for so long Hardly see the people that believe So I am staying strong No one can tell me I am wrong When I am chasing dreams You couldn’t find the one you’d make So now you’re blaming me The fact you didn’t make it Makes it not meant to be Now I got issues of my own Can you please just let me be I swear that I hate me sometimes And how I can be I hate how my mind is making everything Look so differently Cause what you see And what I see Are just two separate things It’s the way that I have lived In my life growing up That changes my perspective Building up too much emotion I feel like I’m broken Every time I try to say a word It’s better left unspoken Every time I try to look at it In different kind of ways I always come back To the point of view I first had Yea its the same My head is clouded I keep on stressing It gives me hell Fighting demons They know me More than I do myself Trying to figure it out I need to move along They can’t keep holding me down If I am staying strong That’s why I keep pushing the things That are holding me back No taking a second to breathe No I cannot relax I couldn’t take a break if I tried I’ll start to slack Then the devil that’s in my head Will bring the voices back And I’m not up for that So I am doing this I’m doing all I can To never have to miss Another family day Feeling so depressed And I can finally learn To use what’s in my chest