Is This Love?

Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else Do you think that it's real Cause I don't have the time To try and decipher This puzzle of life I thought love was burning The flames getting high Fill up our lungs with the smoke Till we die But we couldn't tame it It's out of control The spark in us went out We did what we're told But we never listened To what's in our souls So we lost the sight Of what's not in our hold Cause we fell apart A reason unknown Something between us Kept telling us no Were so indecisive We don't fit the mold You'd smoke to get by I would rap it in flows I hate situations Where I had to fake it I'd rather be honest But you couldn't take it I'm stuck here debating Was it supposed to be real Or was it a game you were playing to kill Some time Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else I don't know what love is But I know it's not that Wouldn't have the issues That always seems to circle back It's been too long Just to keep coming up Internalize the problem Then suddenly its blowing up I couldn't take it Not playing your games The more that it happened The less I would stay And you were expecting The times I would lay Right by your side While a movie would play But I won't do that I couldn't be there Something would happen And im not prepared To deal with bull You were dealing those days Go to my setup My creative space Just to get away I would start making beats Then write out my heart Keeping it vaguely So no one really knows How im doing lately But im doing fine Cause I dropped my lady I'm free This is not the love I thought existed It's not a movie, or a story that ive seen This is not the love I thought existed It's not a movie, or a story that ive seen Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else Is this life Up and down Rollercoaster Round and round Is this love That ive found Or a shell of something else And even though were done Got no hard feelings left over I am not resenting you Got no grudge hanging over I know that you will be okay And I hope you stay sober I hope you live a happy life And you don't have the controller Hope you live it naturally Hope you find yourself a king And I hope you learn to change Like you never did for me But I think you learned a lesson See I learned a couple things I just hope you work it out So you can work up towards you dream