Overwhelmed

I don't wanna go to work I just wanna go to sleep Cause everytime im not at home I get filled with anxiety I thought that it was bad before But im lower mentally Couldn't tell you what is going on But life is overwhelming me Broken emotion Mental floating I'm a disaster Heart is dulling I'm not the same as I used to be but I don't remember if I need All these faded memories Feelings that I shouldn't keep In a cell, cant find the keys So defeated, lost at sea Talk to myself Yea I know ive been distant Fighting the demons I've been on a mission Work through the pain Is it right, did I get it? Don't want love Taking time, I don't miss it No, I just wanna fix my soul Cause it all hurts, and its getting old Hard knock life and im still so young Working on me, and you think its dumb But you can call it what you want You can call it what you want You can call it what you want I don't wanna go to work I just wanna go to sleep Cause everytime im not at home I get filled with anxiety I thought that it was bad before But im lower mentally Couldn't tell you what is going on Cause life is overwhelming me I'm straight outta luck I've been down in a rut Barely anybody knows Yea im keeping it tucked Ive been holding on tight Gotta stick to my gut Never telling a soul Keeping my lips shut Cause its not worth it They don't wanna know Telling anybody never fixed my soul Harder when im used to fighting this On my own Don't like people, and id rather be alone But I hate feeling lonely, it gets so cold If I cant fix this, do you think ill grow I've been building up sins, and I will atone But right now im messed up So that stuffs on hold Cause God did me dirty No control Changed my life And he made me fold Quit this game, in rage I know But I cant take more of this weight Im broke so Call it what you want Call it what you want You can say im being childish You dont know what is going on Its way too toxic for my mental Now I deal with the withdrawals I put myself before the others For my health and now its wrong? No, I dont believe that Because im a man I shouldnt be happy Im choosing myself They dont worry about me And they dont see that It's not their agenda Ill never get better Ill spill it in music And battle forever I wanna be happy But im sprialing again But im sprialing again Yea im spiraling again I dont wanna go to work I just wanna go to sleep Cause everytime im not at home I get filled with anxiety I thought that it was bad before But im lower mentally Couldnt tell you what is going on But life is overwhelming me