Why Am I Like This?

I can’t believe, I’m crying Why Am I, like this Taking time To Reap what I sow It’s all my fault I like to, overthink And it ruins everything Can I fix what I broke So why am I like this Why can’t I change You deserve better Not me, stuck in my ways I hate all the questions Cause I don’t know the answers I’m fighting depression But what does it matter I’m pacing back and forth Because of thinking what to say I got a couple answers But the feeling ain’t the same It’s not from the heart It’s not from my pain Just something really random I’d be using for space Truly Music It’s gotta be truly music So I’m Keeping connected With Myself to keep it real That’s how I gotta do it Cause if I don’t It isn’t me NF is the inspiration His music’s what I want to be Real, emotion A Story, unfolded A living, so molded Get lost in, the moment A craft that’s perfected No rhymes are expected A new kind of method A song with a message Cause I’m somebody that is so different I'm an outcast, that’s usually leaving Cause I’m somebody that is so different I'm an outcast, that’s usually leaving I can’t believe, I’m crying Why Am I, like this Taking time To Reap what I sow It’s all my fault I like to, overthink And it ruins everything Can I fix what I broke So why am I like this Why can’t I change You deserve better Not me, stuck in my ways I hate all the questions Cause I don’t know the answers I’m fighting depression But what does it matter I’m in my head I gotta get out I’m screaming again You’re hearing me shout I really favor to be on my side Give me the words and the feeling inside I’m taking emotion I’m lacking devotion I’m searching for happiness Like it’s a Token I Can’t find it anywhere Like it’s been stolen I'm Making me dizzy I'm Needing a moment I’m lost and I think I need saving At least somebody pray for me Joy is what I’ve been craving Nobody is finding a plate for me Another day feeling alone Guess I am making it all on my own Just to be able to live That is the goal That is the goal A glimpse of hope A spark of life Something to ignite the light Another day Another fight I’m lucky I am here tonight I try my best to look complete Forever happy On my feet But honestly I just need Somebody that will pray for me So will you pray for me Will you pray Will you pray