Gradient Dreams

Start to think that everything is a sign Every week be passing by within the blink of an eye Cannot tell what’s got a hold of me Leaving what I know it feels like a homecoming Graduation kinda came and went Finished a year early the sentiments Did not have the same effect that storybooks told Now it’s time to come to terms with how the memories fold From yesterday I feel the distance while the distant past I reach out and touch Put the pieces together im just a pawn Before I found myself I had to find I belonged And that the truth is rarely black and white Maturing learning how to envy the most boring life When you see how many live without peace for long enough Had to have some honest conversations who brought it up Not me cause I’m unbothered you called my bluff Put it all out on the line, but do it all for love Put it all out on the line, but do it all for love Watch the sky turn gradient And the sky turns Hopped in the uber to a holiday party Rocking a nice suit driver complimented me kindly She was the daughter of a priest in her motherland She pled her truth, of the father tried to understand Told her the ways Ive been blessed, and my shortcomings found her impressed perspective wider than most kids that she’d met Told her bout my fam, bout my past, some shit that I’ve seen Asked her bout the rapture and our free will I was keen irony of the timing that had brought us together I had got myself on track chasing means of celebration The next week I was raving back to back from hitting Vegas Taking shrooms popping Molly feeling like I made it I promised to call and one day join her at church Cause I truly felt the love when she recited a verse Admire anyone who takes a leap to feel the divine So I didn’t have the heart to say I thought it was lies still Still allow it though to stick with me, most people would’ve brushed it off My generation believe in believing nothing But you cannot blame us the way the needle jumping Back and forth constantly Im honestly fucked up Directionless but tell me how can I build trust Two lives but which one is more free Being the best of what I am or who I’m meant to be Watch the sky is turn gradient And the sky is turns gradient Sun peaking through the clouds I see our then and now It’s something to find safety in Watch the sky turn gradient And the sky turns gradient Spending a lot time alone now Relying on myself and f*ck a profile lived in a bubble throughout my adolescence Leaving it feel lonely but a bit refreshing The fan behavior is a little extra Gossip and eavesdropping put so much effort I’m not just taking bout the worship of celebrities Who in your circle treats their friends like they TMZ Shawty go and get your own life You making issues out of nothing cause you bored right Any fabrication that will give you some more validation Cause you cannot keep a friend or the men you dating When our youth starts to fade what qualities should we keep with us I hope a piece of it remains once it all hits us What doesn’t make us stronger prolly gon kill us Flipped it on its head to get the real picture