Obsession

I try to balance daily life with this musical plight But my obsessive mind makes it too tricky to fight I sit in the booth, lose track of the time Invest my mind and my body to the tracks that I write I've always had issues with compulsive behavior When I commit to anything, I go all in, I don't waiver Plus, meticulous nature, either perfect or failure This shit is all consuming, like last year in Zoom meetings This year obsession will reveal some new meanings Stuck in less ideal between the mix and my true feelings How can it be? Began this morning at three It's like I've been here so long I started growing algae But I'm right up my alley, exactly where I wanna be Just gotta manage time better between this and family Balance is important, without it life is heinous It's just hard to diverge being focused on greatness Like a waitress I got a lot on my plate And I stack plates like cabinets at estates I wear my heart on my sleeve like compassion is fashion It's cool to say that I'm obsessive but to me it's just passion I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium If you put one percent of the energy that you spend on your music And applied it to your studies then you'd be able to use it To get a good job, secure the future that you pick These are the kind of norms that just make me feel too sick What if I don't want to be content, I want something more Open the door, the sounds and notes I'm running towards Running for a long while til' I can't run no more It took a long while to find that music should come before Any other plight, look, the music lives inside me Dying to come out like come on Mac you gotta write me And when I finally get to it, every line I write surprises me It flows like the Nile, it's my pen that is driving me Next thing you know, we've has been at it for hours Your powers are too great, it's consumed me, devoured It's a double edged sword because I'm forgetting a lot Of the things I should have dealt with, without you I would have not I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium In some kind of state of pain, need to reclaim my brain Obsessed to be the best, need to regain control Before it's too late and I can't awaken my soul And you cascade me down the rabbit hole til' it takes a toll On my mental health, and my potential wealth I wish it was easy to go and put you up on the shelf But you compel me constantly with your whistles and bells Consistently wonder how I stay under your spell It's a continuous cycle to fill your ambiguous title Obsession, compulsion, fixation, delusion You draw me in then you create this illusion If I keep up revolutions then I'll get retribution But I've come to the conclusion that I'm better than this You better pray like a mantis cause I'm great with semantics I've learned your language, no longer you'll enchant us No longer running torture you underwater like Atlantis Yea, use obsession as advantage Used to take you for granted now I'll just divert the damage To the industry, they'll take interest in me Cause this year I'll be everywhere like a Christmas tree Got my game locked up like arresting me Blessed indeed, make grandeur moves, majestically When I'm on the mic I'm impressing me Obsession flipped on its head now you obsessed in me I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium I'm off the rocker. I'm nuts, macadamia The search for greatness ascended to a mania Deeply rooted, subterranean Search is consuming my body and my cranium