How I Wish I Could (feat. Tovë)

The night arrived Like yesterdays Full of screams Full of pains I see no stars Lighting up the way No, I'm not lost I just don't know how to escape And I hear my name But no one's around Yes, I wonder Can god make out the sound? And the river flows But it doesn't move These rocks it carries Tell the story I wish I could Oh, how I wish I would Who do I blame? When the tears that fall Resemble the tears I cried When everything was my fault I try to forget I try to go numb But this wind brings back a memory That had gone I don't know when I don't know how But suddenly it feels like moving up Is coming down And so I stay Watching a smiling moon That reminds me that I once also could Oh, how I wish I would The earth feels cold Against my cheek Seeing the sunrise I feel a weight lifted from me And I want to go Yes, I want to leave This fear you summon me with Can't be stronger than me Yes, I am afraid But this can't go on I refuse to live a life That I don't want Yes, I am afraid But I'm also strong And I choose to fight To become the woman I was Before the screams Before the pains Before the shame And the self-hate I just want to be